WAIT. Advent Week One
I don’t like to wait in a line at a store.
It causes me to begin restructuring corporate operations.
I was born without a dimmer switch
I operate at two speeds: 150 miles an hour and OFF.
Resentment is flourished when I sit in a construction zone
and I see no evidence of any work being done.
But, I spend a lot of time waiting.
I wait on other people’s responses
I wait for the right idea
I wait to see what will happen to a project
I wait to see if someone else will invest in what I care about.
I am trying, this Advent
To wait…
but I am impatient.
I am impatient
with insults that lead to injury
with pessimism that extinguishes optimism
with too many excuses and not enough responsibility
with not enough when we have plenty
I am trying, this Advent
To wait…
but I am impatient.
I am impatient
with slow process and short fuses
with my short attention span for gratitude
with too many things that don’t matter
and not enough time with what does
I am impatient
with innkeepers that don’t have room
and angels that didn’t just solve the problem
with the invitation to Mary and the challenge
of being free enough to say “yes” or “no
which makes the decision all the tougher
But…
it’s Advent
So…I am waiting
I was just very patient
with the person who had more than 15 items in the Express Check Out
or at least I didn’t say what I was thinking
I was just very patient
with the re-routed construction traffic that seems to have no purpose
except increasing my carbon footprint
I was just very patient
in the furry of ambiguity
the cloud of unknowing
the messiness of being unclear
the challenge of letting go of Nazareth without knowing where Bethlehem is
the leaning into letting God be God
and sitting in the prayer of
WAIT
Still, my soul
the list
the litany
the objectives
the expectations
the plan
Still, my soul
for it is Advent
And, I shall
light one candle
and WAIT
in love
BE OUR LIGHT
